the strange dual imperative to be a true original individual and also the imperative not to be special or see oneself as special; my resentment of others’ claims to be special; “the scandal of particularity”
the problem of generalizing out any of these specific thoughts or impulses or flickering awarenesses into a principle by which I can act
these are boring questions that I am bored of
party scenes
more conversations between M and A
write the whole next-to-last chapter “in scene”
then i can have the last part in maybe third person or something
narrated by the fog…??
there was another scene i forget
more about the station government